The Best Intentions

I can not believe it has been almost a year since I posted to this blog. I was going to use this as a clearing house for the thoughts that rattle in my head. I had intended to blog at least every two days, use this as a place to let my hair down,self evaluate, and bare my soul if you will.Let me see I started the blog and posted twice and now only 355 days later another post. I wonder if I should share all my random thoughts for good intent that I have had in the last 355 days. Should I share all the idea I have had that really were good, but other than talk about them have done nothing.I know the dangers of good intentions after all I raised my children with them, even hurt my wife with them, and they must just seem like lies to friends.I must admit I do not spend near as much time in the room of good intentions as I use to. What am I doing beating myself up for not posting to a blog that nobody else reads? I am angry at myself for letting myself down and not following through again, GET OVER YOURSELF. Posting or not posting to blog does not matter, not living life by a rule of good intent does. Honestly the last 355 days have been fantastic! Have I screwed up? YES! Have I let myself and others down? Yes! Have I improved my relationship with my wife and kids? Yes! Have I became more a part of my community? YES!Have I reached out to other struggling folks? YES! Most Importantly have I improved my relationship with God? YES,YES,YES! So while I have not been writing here I have been a busy boy. I have found a trusting graceful relationship with a higher power that I all God. Have I improved on the thing I wrote about a year ago? I have made progress and continue to work on myself and my relationship with him so I can be a better Husband,Father, and Friend.I pray everyday for the gift to follow through and to not just dream. I am grateful for the ability to dream again, but dreams without follow though for me become more boxes in the room of good intentions.I pray for the time to write here again maybe in a day, a week or a month or even a year. I pray that God blesses us all everyday, funny I would pray for what we all already have.